Tag Archives: pain

shards of sand

things are not as they should be as i want them to be or need them to be i have no desire to fix it or break it i’ve tried so hard to walk away, move on i’t’s been years … Continue reading

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neglect trumps abuse

When you are repeatedly hurt as a child It forces you to retreat inside of your head You fiercely protect the ember of your soul You bury it deeply inside of a shrivelled heart Refusing to weep and bring her … Continue reading

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night terror

startled awake, heart pounding, my eyes fly open to see the dark room of night in that brief moment of sudden awareness, i mentally check my environment i’m in bed, my spouse is beside me; in fact he is still … Continue reading

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damaged foundations

I pretend to be a strong and confident woman and it’s all simply a show. I pretend for my own benefit as I always assumed one day I would actually feel the things I stated I felt. Seems simple enough, … Continue reading

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3rd Day 1

Fuck you for contacting me after yet another 7 months spent recovering from you Nice new email address you have with your new girlfriends name along with yours What am I supposed to do with your cordial email greeting Dropping me … Continue reading

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Grief despair and pain

  I think that when you lose someone whom you love, you hurt so badly for so long, that you become as much numb to the pain of loss as you are deeply aware of it. It’s very similar to … Continue reading

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any given Sunday

I have stopped and started 100 different ideas, unable to finish any as my mind is fragmented and unable to organize. I feel disjointed and sad. Unbearably morose with no single event to trigger it, just a deep sorrow that … Continue reading

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Essay: Loss, Depression, Faith and Relationships

It has been 6 months since my discovery that lead to my leaving my prior lover. I have not been “right” since. I know the hows and the whys and there is nothing left to discover or disseminate from the … Continue reading

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sticks and stones

I am sitting here on the verge of tears Wondering where the years went Feeling scared and unappreciated Wondering if I’ll die without living Wishing I could lose weight Without actually exercising Or giving up comfort food I use food … Continue reading

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female troubles

Sometimes being a woman really sucks, you know. We live with pain as part of our lives, more often than not, on a regular basis. Think about that for a moment. We don’t “just” get a period that lasts 7 … Continue reading

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