Category Archives: friends

never the same

i felt your betrayal, the isolation of your leaving me, and it’s impacted the fragile and tentative way i have of trusting anyone. i loved you … once. “There are all kinds of love in this world but never the … Continue reading

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stupid notifications

life is going along all hunky dory then i get a notification on my phone reminding me it was your birthday and it pissed me off that i forgot to delete it, like i did everything else. i thought i … Continue reading

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goodbye old friend

i thought about you today, for the first time, in a long time. i had happy news and for the briefest, fraction of a moment couldn’t wait to tell you, until i remembered we have not spoken in forever. i … Continue reading

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when mental illness kills

ok fine. I AM angry and trying not to be. Anger is futile and masks fear and frustration. I am not angry at the person. because when people make a choice, you have to accept it whether you agree with … Continue reading

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drinking death

have you ever been so ‘tired’ that the word doesn’t seem right when you use it as a vague description of your current state of being? it’s not even being exhausted. maybe bone weary is a better way to express … Continue reading

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obviously oblivious

One of the loneliest feelings in the world is when someone who is supposed to be your partner asks you ‘what’s wrong’ with attitude and disdain in the hours after learning of a personal tragedy and death of a close … Continue reading

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lessons learned

I’m not sure whether to hate you for not contacting me or to be proud of you for your resolve to focus on a single woman in your life, even though we’ve never been romantically involved. It’s hard for me … Continue reading

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i’m still not talking to you

dear you know who, just a reminder that you suck and I hate not talking to you even though I know it’s necessary and do NOT want you to contact me even though i know you are probably creeping my … Continue reading

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so long, farewell, adieu

i want to be mad at you but am not. still. you suck. it’s broken my heart. lack of contact says everything that needs to be said and i understand. i deleted an entire page of all the other stuff … Continue reading

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running away

well … why not? running away is not just for little kids. i’ve decided to take a wee break … a small field trip. there are times that you simply have to pull back and lick your wounds and give … Continue reading

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