goodbye old friend

i thought about you today, for the first time, in a long time. i had happy news and for the briefest, fraction of a moment couldn’t wait to tell you, until i remembered we have not spoken in forever. i forgot that that of all the people who have come and gone in my life, that the loss of our friendship, was one of the hardest to adjust to. your presence, filled so many voids for me and gave me so much stability. we shared the ability to read between the lines and know what the other person meant, simply by the timing of a silent pause. your absence pushed me into a hibernation. it sent me into a cave to lick wounds. all i wanted was to sleep my way through the darkness because it seemed impossible to be aware of everything for the duration of time which would be needed until i started to recover. i’d like to say i have. but i haven’t. there are some things and some people, that stay with you. so i missed you today, once i realized my mind jumped to sharing my joy with you. i wish that hadn’t happened. but it made me realize that your absence doesn’t hurt anymore. you have moved to my past. finally.

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2 Responses to goodbye old friend

  1. Marty says:

    I guess that’s a good thing then?

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