my need for a strong, sexually aggressive and confident man has never been more apparent to me than it is now. i do not respond to men who are simply in the middle. i either have to have absolute control and be the dominant one, or i need to be completely taken by a male animal who knows what he needs to do to me, which instantly makes me respond to him. i have no middle ground for tepid lovers. none.
it does not matter if he has a glorious cock and has wide masculine hands. technically, he can be rather sound in performance as well as have the control i need to actually enjoy the sexual encounter because he can and does, keep up with me. but sexually neutral is not inspiring. it is reminiscent of the groping eagerness and inexperience of high school boys who finally have access to their first girlfriends. and i don’t respond to it.
of course, i enjoy it for what it is, but it mentally can not draw me into the sexual response i am capable of and need. i need to lose myself in sex. my body needs to be owned by his hands and mouth. if he can not make me an extension of his desire then while i find sex pleasurable, it is by no way, satisfying. it’s like being asked to ride the kiddie rides at the fair, after riding the massive roller coaster for the first time. you simply can’t go back to finding the thrill in the smaller rides any longer.