erectile dysfunction. nothing says i am not attracted to you, i don’t want to have sex with you, more than seeing your partners soft cock in the middle of a sexual liason. yayaya i know the reasons; medical issues, it happens on occasion, it’s not reflective of anything…whatever. when you have an erection and lose it once the woman shows interest or while having sex, it’s like a slap in the face or being doused in cold water for her. it ENDS the ability to feel aroused and worse it makes you feel like you are not attractive and that you are not wanted as a woman. it ensures you don’t even try next time.
reasonable of not, it’s how a woman feels. true or not, it’s what we think. your erection issue IS her’s as well and if you don’t sort it out then not only will there be a physical distance between you but an emotional one as well. it will be the only thing getting bigger every time she tries and fails to have sex with you. because you stopped initiating sex a long time ago, most likely you have developed insecurities on if you can get hard. or stay hard. and then you probably worry about premature ejaculation since it’s been weeks/months since you last had sex.
your soft cock and reliance on drugs means there is no more spontaneous sexual encounters. it means an end to passionate sex stemming from a random kiss. when you let things go so long until they get so bad, do you seriously think that your ability to function sexually is NOT going to be impacted? what the fuck is wrong with you that as a man you prefer emasculation compared to the embarrassment of admitting you can not get an erection by traditional means? isn’t the relationship worth the private chat with the Dr?
everything about sex has to be choreographed to an inch of it’s life and it makes you feel like you are on fertility drugs trying to conceive and have sex within the right parameters, when temperatures are right and conditions are optimal and quite frankly it pisses me off in annoyance, as opposed to making me feel sexual or desired. the entire thing makes me want to just fucking get it over with as opposed to enjoying it and worse it highlights every single failure in between. why not use the drugs as part of the foreplay, instead of hiding it or simply not taking it at all and ensuring failure?
i abhor the reminder that i am not enough to arouse you and keep you hard. i know you have mental and physical issues that have created this erectile issue that i have to live with as your primary partner and i feel cheated of a normal healthy adult sex life by avoiding the attention of others so you could try and fix things. you can’t fix what you won’t admit is broken and you are so fucking broken that i seriously doubt if your attempt at fixing this marriage can work. even with the magical boner pill you forget to use.
whatever. it’s not like i lied and told you i was monogamous. this was my choice to give you my full attention and you prove time and again you can not handle me. every single time you push me away from a sexual experience with you, you make it harder to stay away from the man who wants to be back in my bed. how can i refuse him, how can i refuse myself, when our sex drives are normal and you are the one who languishes in this weird world where chastity is preferred over sexual contact?
seriously, the only time there is any ever passionate intimacy between us is when i say ‘fuck you’ after being disappointed and disgusted by your failure to perform…again…and i don’t want to hear one of the stupid lies and excuses you tell yourself, told to me. you make the situation exponentially worse by refusing to discuss it with me, acting like this sexual failure is a new and unusual surprise instead of a chronic issue presenting itself for over a decade. i may have strained an eyeball, as it rolled back in my head so far that it looked like i was channeling spirit or having a seizure.
i can not do this. i can’t be patient with you as you try and use drugs and manage your erectile dysfunction while i am sexually frustrated. the only way i can give you the support you obviously need, is to come to your bed after leaving another mans and being satiated to the point that your failures or success simply do not matter to me because another man has taken care of me properly. which is something you seem incapable of doing, even with a fucking instruction manual detailing every single thing you can do that would work for me.
your erectile dysfunction is an erectile disaster when you ignore it and the longer you let it go, the harder it is to get your partner to reinvest. the chances of her remaining faithful, when you refuse to meet her basic physical needs are very slim. and your insane belief she should remain faithful when faced with your inability to be a sexual partner to her is unreasonable. if you can’t meet her sexual needs then at least allow her the dignity of having those needs met elsewhere without having to worry about your reaction to it, so it doesn’t have to be hidden.
get help. get therapy. get drugs. or get used to the fact that your wife has to fuck other men to have her basic sexual and intimacy needs met because you have failed as a partner on every level possible. you may be completely content with your soft cock and never having sex, but i am not. get it up or get it out of your head that a change to a celibate marriage is something i can live with.