The absolute ignorance and pettiness of my extended family will NEVER cease to amaze me. You know when you ‘think’ you get it? When you ‘think’ you understand, you accept the quirks and the back handedness and veiled insults they scatter between themselves like pepper over rice?
The idiots actually manage to get under your skin because you FORGET that they aren’t normal, that they don’t play by the rules of family or even common decency. As a child I kept myself out of the drama, I withdrew from it. As I got older, I simply assumed that I did not know the back stories that created the tension between them all. As an adult, I discovered they are all so fucking damaged that they constantly bring it into their lives.
They blame constantly. They never take accountability for their own actions. They believe the lies being told and would never think to ask someone for their version of what happened so they can understand a situation. They are nothing but a bunch of vindictive little schoolgirl bullies who thrive on the torment they want others to feel by trying to isolate them from the group, even as they attack each other.
I forget how they are because I have been apart from it so long. Voluntary withdraw so interaction is on MY terms and with conditions that does not normalize their ignorant actions. Guess how easy it is for me to leave when the veiled insults start, when I don’t have reason to stay? Brief appearances to ensure no one’s feelings were insulted by my refusal to attend. All happy, happy, fake, fake then get out before it starts.
NONE OF THEM have an authentic emotion between them. All living fake lives with fake feelings and oblivious to the sterile vacuum that their negativity brings into others lives. So ignorant to each other that it floors me. I can’t imagine living with the fear based division that they foster, for my entire life. I don’t know how they stand each other.
OH! and the whole reason I contacted you in the first place? How about a big ‘fuck you’ instead, because I sure as hell won’t be repeating the same mistake ANY time soon. Live alone, die alone and be forgotten; I certainly won’t be extending myself again. Life is far too short to deal with such brutally negative people, especially when you have a choice NOT to.