it’s funny…the worst thing about having an amazing sexual experience, that instead of satisfying me, it ends up making me want…need…a repeat of it. does this make me too sexual? oversexed? i don’t understand women who are ‘satisfied’ once they are satisfied. women who are satiated once they have had an orgasm…or 6. how can you not want to have those sensations, that experience as many times as you can?
there is something primitive in focusing solely on physical sensations – yours and your partners. nothing else exists beyond flesh and touch. your hearing becomes selective as you are attuned to the other persons every gasp, every in drawn breath or sigh. Your hyper awareness is limited to 2 bodies as they try and consume each other. it’s when i am the most alive. the most aware. the most focused. the most giving.
and i crave it when i don’t have it. i miss it when i can’t access it immediately. sometimes i just want to be able to reach out and fondle male genitalia like a favorite pet. have it beside me at my beck and call so i can comfort myself using its delightful presence. it intrigues me and delights me. it’s reactive response arouses me instantly. it’s tumescence a source of intense focus and delight making me want to give it succor. to inhale it, to consume it. and finally to raise it’s interest again.
would that i could have him slip inside me. come up from behind me and enter me slowly after raising my skirt. i can feel the granite under my hands as he penetrates me in the kitchen and dinner preparation is forgotten, as i am taken from behind. his slow possession , his one hand cupping a covered breast, his lips on the nape of my neck as his other arm wraps around my waist.
every thrust, every single time he pushes into me, makes me more of who i am and want to be, as the woman who lives for and thrives in the consummation of his carnal lust, which matches my need to have him cum inside of me and leave me dripping with his thick semen. i want the heavy breathing, i want his cock inside of me, i need it, i crave it. it’s my single purpose in life to be the accommodating, sexually available woman, to give him the sweet, tightness he needs.