The attention of a much younger man has me quite reflective. I can honestly say I have never, ever even remotely considered a relationship with a man that much younger than myself. Personally, even a 5 year difference has made me uncomfortable. I have neither the need to validate myself from having the attention of a younger man or subject myself to be a check mark on a mans sexual bucket list that would include sex with an older woman.
He is very attractive. He reminds me of a man I dated for a school term, back when I was a kid and in my first year of University. I looked like Jessica Rabbit back then, when I was young and perfect in the way of tight youth. He is highly educated with 2 degrees plus his Masters. He is very athletic and muscular. He is a former professional athlete who has left the sport after injury that stops him from being an elite player yet doesn’t impact his life in any way. His career change, of course, has put him into another very masculine job venue.
I can honestly say, I can not consider having any type of actual relationship, sexual or otherwise, with this man. So why am I continuing to talk to him? It’s because despite his age, he is able to engage me and amuse me and so in spite of my better judgement, I have found that I have developed a rapport with him that leaves me laughing and shaking my head at myself. He knows how to get under my skin, which in and of itself is a rarity, and he does it very naturally.
He brooks no interference from his role as a man in control of himself and his environment. Perhaps that’s the real reason I still talk to him. I enjoy confidant men who are not intimidated by me and he certainly fits that bill. I am under NO illusions about the possibility of ‘dating’ this young man. It would feel unnatural and awkward for me. However the attention and interest has made me smile and feel particularly ‘not my age’.
That and did I mention he is attractive on a scale that would use Grecian marble effigies, of the perfect male body, as the base line? As a black man, he appreciates a white woman with large breasts and wide hips with a soft, round ass. His obvious sexual admiration is quite apparent. Ahhhhh, if I were 20 years younger I doubt I would even have the discussion with myself on whether or not sex with him would be an option, as it would have already occurred.