It’s so wonderful to see you write conciliatory tones of praise to a wife who you destroyed by cheating on her. You made a conscious choice to not just have an affair but to engage in multiple affair liaisons over almost the entire course of your marriage. Of course you are sorry now; now you have been caught you have to try and seem to make amends or come off looking like the worst sort of adulterous jerk.
Will you use mental health as a scapegoat? Despair the day you succumbed to a temptation too strong to resist? How about blaming it as the result of alcohol use? Let’s choose a vice and blame that instead of your complete lack of moral character and absolute immaturity. The reality is you are a selfish, narcissistic, self serving asshole who can not be faithful because you traded the peace of your family to enjoy the chase of getting your next piece of ass.
Your wife may actually be stupid enough to continue to live in a state of self induced hysterical blindness pretending that the marriage counselling she insisted upon and you heartily agreed to going to is working and that you are suddenly changing to become a better husband and father, as a disproportionate result of the mediocre efforts. But I see you for who and what you are. And when you look at me, looking at you? You know I see it and it’s why you avoid me.
While she is sitting there in a state of check mate, thinking she has all the options in the world as you go forward into the blissful days of recovery, you and I see how she’s been set up by all your purposefully crafted moves and how you can end things any time you want; but you just keep on letting her think she has some control in what’s happening. You just want to stabilize her so you can fuck around once again while she pretends nothing is wrong. How sweet of you.