to sleep

I look to the clock, positive it must be late

Only to see the time in complete shock and disbelief

I feel my shoulders sag in disappointment

When I realize that I can’t possibly go to bed yet

Technically, it’s not long after the dinner hour

I do the mental math

If I DO go to bed, then chances are

I will wake up well rested at 3am

Or what if I nap and wake up in 2 hours?

Then not be able to get to sleep until 3am

Just to wake up at 6am?

That would feel worse wouldn’t it?

Okay, maybe I can stay awake another 1-2 hours

I seriously doubt I can stay awake another 1-2 hours

Oh NO! What if I get a second wind?

If I stay awake then can’t get to sleep?

I just blinked and dozed off for a minute

I started to dream and woke up when my head nodded

I envy toddlers their ability to sleep when they want to

To listen to their bodies and just exist in the moment

Because I would have been in bed 15 minutes ago

Naked and snuggled into pillows

And under heavy comforters

With the dog lying in front of my shins

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3 Responses to to sleep

  1. rgonaut says:

    I often have a dog in front of my shins, or behind, in the crook of my legs. Frankly, I prefer not too but the dog prefers….

  2. Johnny Ojanpera says:

    I have a bit of an obsession with sleep, or rather not sleeping. It is intrinsically bound to my mental health. Hopefully it is temporary for you.

  3. mala says:

    *sigh* I have this problem almost every day 😦

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